Pregnancy *Nov 9th 2012*

This are notes I made about my pregnancy with "#4".

On Thursday September 13th I found out I was pregnant.  Daddy had no idea I was taking the test that night until I handed him the positive pregnancy test.  We'd done this all before so it didn't seem too huge but we still couldn't believe it.  Every few minutes I would say "I'm pregnant" and a little while latter daddy would say "you're pregnant".  It was all part of the plan but still seemed so strange.  We used a game of hangeman to tell the kids on Sunday night.  Max's response was "for reals?" and Elese said "In real life?"   They were very bouncy.  Sam seemed to have some idea and will lift up my shirt and find my belly button when I talk about "the baby".  He also nods when asked if I'm going to have a baby.  To date I've only thrown up once.  I've been didicating a lot of my time to the RS Christmas program Women at the Well and I really think I've been blessed for it.  We bought a van a couple of weeks ago.  It took some getting used to but I'm really starting to like it.  I thought I was going to strat working again and that was going to pay for the deductable but I found out yesterday that I will not be working.  Bring on the stress. Then today at the doctor they said I HAVE to do the pay as you grow plan which means $600 a month!  I don't have that.  (we ended up putting it on a 0% interest rate credit card - we survived despite my drama in this note)  It took all I could to not burst into tears.  Then they said I could wait until Jan to pay but that I will have to pay for October November december and January at that time.  So I have a month to come up with $2400.00.  Once again doing my best to not cry.  The doctor wanted to do an ultrasound to make sure there was only one baby.  A patient recently got a surprise at her 20 week ultrasound so she decided to make it procedure.  The moment I saw cute little you I knew it would be ok.  Once again I held in the tears but this time they were happy tears.  As I watched you wiggle and squirm and saw your heart beat I knew money didn't matter.  I knew that we would make it work even if we have to put it on a credit card.  I knew money didn't matter to you.  You were a happy baby and all you cared about was trying to suck on your little fist.